Many of us at Oak Leaf Church are reading through the Bible chronologically this year. Today Donna and I started the book of Job. Today is seven months since Caleb Lloyd was taken from us. I am not the only one to have had a grief-induced broken filter. Job might be the first recorded person who did.
It’s impossible to weigh my misery and grief! They outweigh the sand along the beach, and that’s why I have spoken without thinking first. The fearsome arrows of God All-Powerful have filled my soul with their poison. – Job 6:2-4 CEV
Job continues from here to plead his case. He wonders why a good man has lost so much while evil men do not. He lost his health, children and livelihood. I can relate to his pain having lost three businesses, three children, and Donna’s many health problems. I continue to question these events. Though I have read this book many times, the relevance of this passage to today drove me to read ahead.
As surely as God lives, who has denied me justice, the Almighty, who has made my life bitter— for while my spirit is still in me, and the breath from God is in my nostrils, my lips will not speak wickedness, and my tongue will whisper no deceit. – Job 27:2-4 NET
Job is eventually “restored”. I cannot say I agree it is a perfect restoration since no matter what occurs I will always miss my children. However, I have hope. I have hope this life becomes more bearable and a hope I will see all those lost one day.